Loose Threads

I don’t really know where to start right now.
Do you ever have those days where the thoughts are running rapid fire around your mind, but there’s no structure to the thought process? If I could just get the ideas in my head organized, I’d be able to grab a string, and yank the words out. A proverbial loose thread in a conversational sweater. I want to muse about the act of falling for someone… the stress of work, the economical black hole, the budding hope of our new president elect, the fact that I’m still, selfishly, hiding from the majority of the world… it seems if it doesn’t involve one of my BFF’s (Alie), the paper, the club or the boy… I just don’t have time or energy to expend…. the days are so long lately. Not that I’m complaining mind you. I’ve never been one to shy away from hard work, and my mums always said that with responsibility comes freedom. So since I sucked it up and started working harder and focusing more on things that truly needed my attention… I’ve found a little peace. Well… as much peace as my horrid mind will allow me. It’s tough being me. I know that most people would laugh… or chastise me… or whatever it is that people do when they don’t know you, or what you go through… but still feel the need to lump you in to a category of sorts. Oh the world… the land of snap judgments. Good times. haha. Truth be told though.. most people tend to think I’ve got it together…. attractive, fun, witty, hardworking, pretty even kilter, loving, kind, a little too naive…… I’m a good friend, frugal, etc….. but jeezus… life sure can be hard…. even with all that going for me. I guess, in a weird way… it’s kind of comforting… there’s a calmness to be found in the idea that we’re all pretty much fucked up in one way or another. haha.. ahhh… I didn’t mention that I was an optimist too did I? Gotcha. Anyway… I guess I should run, maybe by tomorrow- I can find the aforementioned thread, and launch into a much needed tangent. I can feel one building… and it’s making me antsy. All build up… no climax.

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