Seriously. Overnight.. I went from feeling normal.. to being hyper sensitive to smells and discovering a new aversion to pulled pork. Maybe not all pulled pork, but I was at the salad bar at Whole Foods today, and wandered over to the BBQ area.. and as my brain my was telling me that just a little bit of BBQ’d pulled pork on the salad would be delicious, my body clearly responded with a do-it & I’ll cause a scene. Sooooo, needless to say- I sadly turned away. I do love BBQ… so I hope this new development isn’t going to be a lasting thing. Anyway… I’ve been reading alot, since quite frankly- I’ve got no fucking clue what I’m doing and without having some semblance of a plan, I start … Read entire article »

So.. I’ve eluded to stuff but haven’t really come out with it… but our little family is growing, and as excited as I am- I’m also fully uncertain of what to do and where to go and how to do it… just one of the many joys of being & doing what I’ma-currently-ah-doin’. Thankfully… since I’m not 18, I’ve got really amazing girlfriends who have families themselves and are coaching me through the “oh my gods” and “is this normals” So, in the midst of feeling like a stuffed lop … Read entire article »

Everyday its a new thing: Yahoo AOL Google All either currently undergoing layoffs, or recently just went through a round of layoffs… Google is shocking to say the least, since it’s the leader in online search engines. All print media is suffering, even powerhouses like Vogue. Real Estate is still a joke Automotive is still suffering.. You know it’s bad when Little Debbie recently underwent massive layoffs. What the hell. In happier news….. so far, my new job is great. I’m still in training, but they’ve successfully sold me on the product, which is pretty hard to do since I can usually see that product sales pitch a mile away. It happens at every sales job I’ve ever had… but this one- I really actually believe in. So I’ve got to say that’s an amazing feeling. As … Read entire article »

Real quick since I have to finish up a project for work… but here’s my horoscope for today: Daily Planetary Overview With the Moon sextile Pluto, your feelings will border on obsession. You should be able to keep your emotions under control with the sextile, but inside, you will feel passion. Others will be drawn to your mysterious sex appeal. Your Horoscope – Today, January 28, 2009 Today is a terrific day for you, Rya, in which you have the opportunity to start over again on many levels, especially romantic ones. Whether you are in a serious romantic relationship or not, you will find that all of your interactions with close friends and partners will be especially tender and meaningful. Strengthen your bonds with the people around you and you will find that your … Read entire article »

Well…. I’m procrastinating. I know it. I’ve even acknowledged it, in hopes of befriending said procrastination…. with the idea of making tricking it into motivation. So far…. plan not working so good. Soooo… here I am. Tonight’s my last night at the bar… and thus successfully ending my two months of being back bartending. I don’t mind working at a bar… but truthfully…. the 4-5am getting-home thing, is pretty beat. That part I can do without. To be honest, I wouldn’t go in tonight if I didn’t end up with a flat tire today, and now have to replace it. Grr.. thank god for Triple AAA. They sent a nice guy out who slapped on the spare tire in about 5 seconds flat, and went on is merry little way, … Read entire article »

Alot’s bouncing around in my head today…. but I think… for once, instead of hashing it out here. I’m just going to let it bounce around internally, until the chatter takes on some form of organization. Emotionally, I’m all across the spectrum…. stoked, sad, confused, excited, scared, happy, uncertain….. on and on it goes. So… for now… like I said, I’m just gonna let all the emotions and thoughts run rampant without attempting to exert any control over them. Maybe after my mind mentally unwinds, and eventually exhaust itself- then I can start moving forward with a clearer mind & heart. In the meantime… I still find joy in horoscopes. Both in mine, and the boys. His: Year 2009 Romantic You feel as if you’re reaping the harvest this year in your … Read entire article »

Dal centro della mia vita venne una grande fontana Translated from Italian to English it states: “From the center of my life, there came a great fountain” … Read entire article »

With the ever growing depth of feeling in my current situation, I’ve had a lot on my mind in regards to relationships and the ways of successfully living life -with that team mindset, all the while maintaining the individuality that initially attracted us to each other. I stumbled across this article that I thought pretty much nailed down the fundamentals of what I consider to be a true foundation. It was actually titled, something like… “6 secret reasons men love being married” and it originally caught my eye due to the author typically having penned articles about living life single etc, etc… “Some of you might remember me as the (charmingly!) equivocating Jake who almost two years ago gave up the single-guy gig writing this column to get hitched … Read entire article »