Yup. It’s that time again. Time to get my focus back and get a grip. I’m, quite possibly, the most responsible person you’ll ever meet…. but lately- I’ve been going big and letting loose a little too much. There really isn’t any need for it or anything good that’s coming out of it. I’ve just ………. made a mess of my mind, I guess. It’s the only way I can think to word that. I think maybe I’m under a little more stress then I realized. Not that it’s an excuse by any means, cause at the end of the day- we’re only responsible for our own actions but I think I’ve been looking to maybe escape some of it- I dunno. I know alot of it is stemming … Read entire article »

Well… I’m getting ready to go to the interview soon. I couldn’t be more nervous or more excited. I hope it goes well and I hope I can keep my nervous babbling, underwraps haha.. In other news… my birthday as well as 2009 has started off on an amazing foot and I truly couldn’t be happier or feel more loved. My horoscope: “Your Lovescope – This Week Oh, wow! Exciting stuff! There will be no snow around you this week. It couldn’t possibly withstand the heat between you and your lover. All signs point to ”yes.” Go for it! This is a passage into a new and clearer understanding for the two of you. Get ready to move to the next level of this relationship.” Ok.. gotta run. Wish me luck. OK!! Just … Read entire article »

I guess I should update this, while I’m having breakfast. I sat down to eat something before hopping in the shower and really launching into my day… so here I am. I reread the last post and had been thinking alot about what I said. I don’t mind what I said so much, since at the time I was feeling it but something the boy said the other day kinda stuck with me… and I just wanted to say he’s right. I shouldn’t wait and vent or speak my mind here…. I should just talk to him about it. Directly. I didn’t realize I’d been hiding behind the blogs until he nicely called me out on it. Initially.. I’d gotten in the habit of just writing out how I felt, … Read entire article »

I mentioned earlier.. that the most amazing thing I had been experiencing was the fact that not only did I finally meet someone that treated me like the girl I am at heart… but they embraced the things that I’d picked up along the way. Various traits that may not be the norm… but there still, on some level….aspects of my personality. Not things that truly define me, and who I am at heart…. but just hobbies, skills, crafts.. .quirks….. etc. I can’t help but feel on some level that maybe I spoke to soon… I mean.. it’s not that I live this crazy alternative life style… it’s just that there’s these things that I started up in the past.. that from time to time crop up. I don’t know … Read entire article »

Ha. Admittedly, the title has nothing to do with the tangent. I just woke up with that scene from Old School running through my head. The one were Will Ferrel is trying to get Snoop Dog to go streaking through quad with him… haha hilarious. Anyway…….. how’s this for a bitch? I forgot to reprogram my alarm to adjust to my new schedule here (you know the new schedule… the fancy sans real job?) so naturally I woke up at 6am… starving and in need of coffee. It sucks, but I’m conditioned to have both immediately after waking. It was worse when I used to do more active modeling, cause I would be working out two times a day, and even though I’d wake up at 5am (back then) I … Read entire article »

thought process from earlier.. here I am. What can I say. Today was my last official day at my job. Crazy. I guess it didn’t really hit me till I turned in my key and hugged my friends good bye. I fully believe that something else, bigger and better will come along. I also was lucky enough to have been given a glowing reference from my ad director. So that helped. I have side stuff that’s coming through, and really- I have to feel blessed, even in the midst of this transition. The friends that I’ve made here, have been rallying around me, helping me out any way they can… from support, to networking to hugs… to everything. I’ve been bitching about living here since I moved, and now.. I feel… … Read entire article »

The boys probably going to kill me for this… but at least I’m putting it here and damnit… I can’t help it. I love this picture. He’s got to be one the best looking guys…… ever. Whatever.. I’m allowed to be a little school girl sometimes. So…… this is how the first few hours of 2009 were spent. Gotta run. More later. … Read entire article »