haha for writing down my thoughts. Sometimes I feel bad if I’ve gone a wave of ranting… but the reason I write to have an outlet and be able to process stuff. It’s kinda like when I was writing for the paper, I would have to actually write it, then sit down and read it out loud to myself…. in order to fully process it. Well, here – it’s usually thoughts that have running around my head and since I can’t really stop the lighting fast process… I have to put them down, then re-read it, in order to figure out what all the noise is in my head. Here’s the kicker of it though.. I feel bad for unloading my thoughts on the interwebs. Like I should always … Read entire article »

Of issues. I mean.. I know that it seems like I just lurk around these parts waiting till I have something to talk about.. but truthfully, I rarely bitch about anything. I figure, unless I can change it… best just let it be. Plus that.. I’ve learned that no matter how many times you listen to others rant and rave….. they rarely will do the same for you or if they do… then I’m riddled with guilt for downloading on someone else… . OR.. it seems to shock them that the normally even kilter person is stark rambling mad. Anyway.. I’m not actually mad about anything, I’m just here to say that getting fat is a bitch. I’m still having a hard time with the scale increasing and knowing that there’s … Read entire article »

“What is now clear is that high levels of stress in pregnancy can, in some cases, be detrimental to the health of the baby and to remain as stress-free as possible is certainly important. It is vital that pregnant women are given adequate support and reassurance from their family, friends and employers, to ensure they have a happy and healthy pregnancy. A recent survey of 1,000 mothers-to-be conducted by Tommy’s found that pregnant women regularly felt stress at work. One in ten said that their employer was unsupportive when they announced their pregnancy and a quarter felt under pressure from employers who expected them to work just as they did before they became pregnant. The research measured the stress hormone cortisol in the mother’s blood and in the amniotic fluid around the … Read entire article »

Can you let up on the stress a bit. Everytime I turn around, your there. Waiting. With a whole new round of crap. I’m in the happiest place of my life, and everytime I begin to enjoy it, you silently smack me down again. When I try and explain it, I’m told not to worry, but I don’t understand that. Worry isn’t just when you sit down and allow those thoughts to swirl endlessly, it’s a means to a final destination of understanding and probable outcomes. My boss needs to stop being neurotic. I get it, I do.. it’s a job, and it’s his job and for awhile there when I mentioned it to people outside of work- they thought I was just being .. whatever… they think it’s me … Read entire article »

So I had a bit of a hissy fit yesterday. I’m not sorry but I will admit that I had one. Random side note, my dreams the last week have bounced back and forth from Derby to the Ocoee river. It’s the river in Tenn, that my Mom and I basically lived on for years. It’s been so strange. I’ve dreamt about the after work volleyball games, the firework wars (I was once chased by 2000 saturn missles. That sucks, FYI.) I’ve relived hiking through through the woods, swimming in the natural pools, and the pre-trip excitement that never seems to go away. For derby, I actually dream it all in sequence. Some of it’s from my own experiences, some of it’s been like watching someone else’s memories. So weird … Read entire article »

I’m some anti-social recluse. I think people sometimes forget that at the moment, I’ve got alot on my mind, I get physically exhausted within seconds of doing something, I don’t exactly feel super attractive due to the relentless weight gain (that I’m fighting every fucking step of the way)and quite frankly- I just don’t feel like being around a lot of people at the moment. I love bars, I love drinking, I love making new friends and meeting people. I usually can strike up a conversation with anyone at any given time, and before this- you’d never find me at home before 2am on a Saturday night… or a Friday night.. or a Tues night.. life was free game for me… but right now… I’ve got nothing to casually relate to … Read entire article »