Ohhhh what I wouldn’t give to have an hour, uninterrupted, to get out all the things that have happened. As you know, my Mom passed. I miss her. I do. Duh. The thing that I find almost ironically poetic, is that.. the Mom that she was trying to hide me from versus the Mom she tried to pretend to me she was…… is actually a cooler version of Mom, then what I knew. Fuck. That sounds bad doesn’t it? I don’t mean it in a bad way… what I mean is that I wish she would have been comfortable enough with herself, the good things about her, the bad things… her present, her past… everything… I think that she thought less of herself then what was really necessary…. but if … Read entire article »

even though I still can’t imagine being even remotely interesting enough to be stalked (I mean.. .followed) whatever… you can keep up with my absolutely random updates at twitter.com/ryariot It’s like my blog but in 160 characters or less. Yep. … Read entire article »

Dude… I got married, had a baby, lost my job and buried my Mom, in a matter of 6 months. If I want to curl up in bed by 7pm… so be it. I’m a little exhausted. Can’t a girl catch a break. Fortheloveofjeebusalready. … Read entire article »

I’m ready to take my life back now. My Mom has passed, and the time for mourning…. was intense, if not mildly brief. I’m not saying that there won’t be moments of pure sorrow, but my Mom was a realist, and if I take too long to mourn her, she’ll start haunting me. I know it’s true and if you knew my Mom.. you would know it’s true too. If I could have her back, healthy and living the life she loved, then yes… of course I’d want that… but if having her back meant she went right back into hospice, I would rather be happy for her choice to start her new adventure. My Mom raised me spiritually, and I think that’s part of what’s helping me now. I’m … Read entire article »