Horrible…
person….. I know
Tonight… I took my adderall
I took it with pure intentions….. since my brain doesn’t seem to function right anymore…. I can’t organize my thoughts… I can’t get a grip on things that I should do… I’m a mess.
Tonight……….. I drank too much wine. I took the adderall and drank too much wine… and you know what I did?
I didn’t go out… I didn’t end up at the Claremont….
I talked to my friend in Virginia, about life in her neck of the woods, and the things she’s going through… and then I talked to my grandma.
Yeah… I got fucking wine drunk with grandma tonight
After spending the last, almost 48 hours going through my dead Mom’s most personal stuff.
It’s been pretty hard…. she had nothing……. NOTHING. But the things in these boxes….. were everything to her…… this stuff, is the Mom that I knew.
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