Rya Riot

God it’s been forever since I’ve written… or even had the luxury to write. I was looking back over past things that I’ve gotten up on my soap box about… and have to admit that wow… I was alot wittier back when my only concerns was if the Man liked me and my personal finances. As I’ve gotten older I’ve realized that maybe I’ve become complacent or *gasp* dare I say… indifferent, to the world at large. I don’t understand HOW America has allowed Sarah Palin to still be a public figure.. and quite frankly.. it freaks me out a little. She has to be the biggest nitwit, with the largest trail of wrong doings… that I’ve ever seen any public actually have. Yet… here she remains. Everything that comes out … Read entire article »

Ohhhh what I wouldn’t give to have an hour, uninterrupted, to get out all the things that have happened. As you know, my Mom passed. I miss her. I do. Duh. The thing that I find almost ironically poetic, is that.. the Mom that she was trying to hide me from versus the Mom she tried to pretend to me she was…… is actually a cooler version of Mom, then what I knew. Fuck. That sounds bad doesn’t it? I don’t mean it in a bad way… what I mean is that I wish she would have been comfortable enough with herself, the good things about her, the bad things… her present, her past… everything… I think that she thought less of herself then what was really necessary…. but if … Read entire article »

even though I still can’t imagine being even remotely interesting enough to be stalked (I mean.. .followed) whatever… you can keep up with my absolutely random updates at twitter.com/ryariot It’s like my blog but in 160 characters or less. Yep. … Read entire article »

Dude… I got married, had a baby, lost my job and buried my Mom, in a matter of 6 months. If I want to curl up in bed by 7pm… so be it. I’m a little exhausted. Can’t a girl catch a break. Fortheloveofjeebusalready. … Read entire article »

I’m ready to take my life back now. My Mom has passed, and the time for mourning…. was intense, if not mildly brief. I’m not saying that there won’t be moments of pure sorrow, but my Mom was a realist, and if I take too long to mourn her, she’ll start haunting me. I know it’s true and if you knew my Mom.. you would know it’s true too. If I could have her back, healthy and living the life she loved, then yes… of course I’d want that… but if having her back meant she went right back into hospice, I would rather be happy for her choice to start her new adventure. My Mom raised me spiritually, and I think that’s part of what’s helping me now. I’m … Read entire article »

this….. this is what i want…. “Account Manager ______ is seeking an Account Manager to provide the highest level of customer service to our advertising customers in ______. The Account Manager will report to the Mgr, Account Management and will partner with the direct sales team throughout the entire advertising sales process. Account Managers will develop pre-sales proposals, generate post-campaign wrap-ups, and drive renewals while building strong relationships with our partners. An ideal candidate will have extensive experience in Account Management, having worked with top brands and agencies across the online ad sales industry. Account Managers will be expected to contribute to developing creative and custom solutions for strategic advertising partners. This position is based in ______.” damnit… i would be perfect this and i’m trying to get the interview but it’s … Read entire article »

So.. I’ve made it no secret that I’ve got a lot going on.. Mom, work, baby, husband, family life as a whole…. etc… so today, in the midst of the tornado of my life, I decided.. fuck the world. I’m going to take my adorable & increasingly pudgy little son to the park. We’re going to cruise around, soak up some sun, and in general… be at peace. I was working hard to let go of the thoughts that haunt me daily… I figured that, I could take an hour off… you know… any where I decide to lay The Stress, was sure to be there when I get back from my Mommy & Me moment right. Right. It worked. We had a lovely walk in the park, I soaked … Read entire article »

People who haven’t watched a loved one go through dying… don’t really get it. Most people’s intentions are good ones, and for the most part, they mean it when they say there “sorry” for what your experiencing. I spend a lot of time trying to keep my real feelings under wraps, for fear of dumping too much on people who simply aren’t qualified to handle that level of grief. When I’m alone, the tears come…. the heart breaks, and I feel the tide of hysteria start to swell. How do you explain that to someone who has no idea how to help, that has no power to help alleviate that pain? I spent years being angry at my Mom.. for believing she made shit choices when I was young. For … Read entire article »

So… I’d like to go on record as saying that I don’t care how it may seem right now…. but I won’t always look like some slouchy housewife. I’m still trying to get a grasp on this baby thing, the lack of sleep thing, trying to eat right (when I have no appetite) and trying to work out when I can. If it was up to me, I’d go everyday… but lack of sleep slows down that process and of course, having someone at the house to watch the baby, is a major factor in that little game. Anywho.. my point was, the world should have some faith. For that… sauciness will prevail. I used to think that Carpal tunnel was a bullshit situation for pansies. Till now. I’ve … Read entire article »

In the 2 weeks of being an actual, full time mommy……. I learned that having something’s entire lively hood depending on you, can send you to the cliff of intensity… but once you’ve made that journey to the cliff, it doesn’t stop. You would think it would taper off slightly, given that you’ve reached the intended destination.. but it doesn’t. The worry, the lack of sleep, the borderline obsession over the babies health… all push you slightly over the edge. Once dangling from said edge, you simply exist there in an alternating state of balance. Sometimes you hang by a foot, a toe, a finger, the whole hand…. sometimes you end up in an unexpected free fall….. no matter how you look at it- your at the cliff, hanging over the … Read entire article »