Rya Riot

I’m gonna bitch like I’ve never bitched before. I’m fucking tired of being pregnant.. I know, I know… it will end. I get it but everyone who’s been telling me that lately… isn’t restricted by there body. They can go have a drink, or a smoke, or tie there fucking shoe, or feel rested after a full nights sleep, or really not have much to think about by way of labor. They don’t wake up 15 times a night to go pee, or feel hungry but unable to eat till you actually feel full (the baby has pushed all internal organs aside in order to have some room… which puts a bit of a damper on eating) I’ve been having pre-labor pains for 3 days now, but nothing seems to be … Read entire article »

I am sick and tired of feeling like a fucking planet. I’ve been a barrel of positive vibes and have been working through everything that’s been handed to me, but sometimes I think people forget that I’m still a person, and that it takes alot of my energy & focus to maintain a positve outlook. I’m tired. I can’t really sleep well, getting up off the couch or turning over in bed, takes an act of fucking god, I’m hungry but don’t want anything, I haven’t felt sexy in like.. months. I’m a very sexual creature, but haven’t had much of a drive in the last few weeks, possibly due to the fact that I can’t see anything past my belly… and well.. worrying about suffacting your husband, can usually lead … Read entire article »

Ok.. so I have a client that, for whatever reasons… likes to call me on the weekends. I rarely, if ever… will answer client calls on the weekends, and this call is no exception. It takes me most of Friday night, to stop thinking about my “work action plan”…. come Saturday, the only thoughts that typically float through my head is my guy, my mom, our little one, our house, whatever we might do for the day, and any thoughts that revolve around those topics…. by Sunday, I’ve officially forgotten there’s a work world out there and have found a total sense of peace. So.. with all do respect, just go ahead and sue me for not answering the phone Client. Frankly my dear…. I don’t give a damn. … Read entire article »

That’s not true, actually. There’s alot of good things to balance out the hard times… but right now, I’m so tired, so uncomfortable and so tapped out – that I haven’t any energy left to really pep myself up. i’ve been doing my best in staying up beat, focused, motivated and strong through out everything life has tossed at me over the last months and I feel like I’ve done a really good job… too good in fact… since when I end up having a rare down time, no one seems to know how to work with me on it. I just get quiet…. I don’t have the words to explain “what’s wrong” since there isn’t one isolated thing…. it’s just that occasionally, my energy reserves are tapped out and … Read entire article »

It’s 6:30am and already 76 deg & counting. I’m eating breakfast and already starting to sweat… inside… with the a/c on. Gawd help me. I ate too much last night for dinner, and now… have recreated that feeling with breakfast. It’s like I just stayed full all night, then woke up still full but didn’t notice till after I finished my little breakfast ritual. I’m so tired I could curl up on the tile and sleep for ages…. We’re taking a pre-test for Google Adwords certification today…. and let me tell you how exciting that is.. I’m kidding about that last part.. It is actually pretty exciting. I’ve gota really strong grasp on the joys of online marketing.. I’m just finding the hard part is to continuously find people to talk to it about … Read entire article »

I actually feel better today, after yesterday’s weird emo-fest. I think maybe I was tired, and well… I think too, that after all the intensity, socializing and whirl wind of activity from the weekend, that I just had a natural drop in energy…. which left me really sensitive all day. That sucked… and was counter productive to a job that requires tough skin haha… side note, but baby is awake and kicking me at 6:30am. He’s like his mommy…. early riser and trained fighter. hahah. Right. I take my bad jokes and goes now. Another side note, I am way to full…. I had my normal breakfast, but I think my appetite is starting to slow down now that we’re in the last months of being pregnant…. and even thinking … Read entire article »

You really just can’t win sometimes. I thought I was doing pretty good in terms of maintaining some level of attractiveness throughout this pregnancy, but low and behold, when I saw the wedding pictures, I couldn’t believe just how fat my face is. My FACE. It’s pretty dissapointing to say the least. I always wanted to be a mom, and I always wanted to be wife, I just never really thought it would be happening at the same time… so my idea of wedding pictures involved something a little more pretty…. instead of looking like I could eat the groom. Needless to say, my confidence took a bit of a hit in the last few days. You can’t win when it comes to life either. I thought I did great maintaining … Read entire article »

I have the worlds most full body hiccups right now. It’s completely and utterly distracting, not to mention that the baby kicks in the off hiccup tempo. Hiccup *kick* hiccup * kick* wash, rinse, repeat. Yeeeowzzz. Anyway, things have gone from fast to speedy gonzales fast. …. waiiiitt…. hiccup *kick* hiccup *kick * hiccup* kick* hiccup *kick* hiccup *kick* hiccup *kick* hiccup * kick* Annnnd I’m spent. Ok.. I’ll have to finish this in the morning, the hiccups are over taking rational thought. Worlds most intense case of hiccups happening right now.. call guiness. … Read entire article »

I’m a truly kind person, and don’t understand the high and mighty persona that other people like to wear. I’ve been rocking the hell out of this world since ’76 – and in that time I’ve realized that we’re all fucking retarded. No one person is better, hotter or cooler then anyone else. Some people are better at doing things then others… like.. I can’t really play the upright bass all that well, despite believing that it’s the single greatest instrument on earth…… I’m frightened of heights and despise rollercoasters.. although I totally admire the fearless folk who don’t seem to be bothered by the imminent death I feel exudes off the rides. I’m an excellent writer but hate pretentious fucks who use there skill to put others down, or … Read entire article »